Figuring out blogger.

So I saw a wonderful blog...the family nest I believe, and thought what a cool way to keep up on the kids and life in general. I am already on youtube and love uploading video of my little ones.

I wanted to go back into the past and record all the stuff I hadn't because I'm new to the whole blogging thing but if anyone else has a 3 month old and a 2 yr old you will know that there isn't a ton of time for these things and in fact as I write this I should probably be heading to bed for sleep. (I may just cut this short and do that soon)

My boys are my life. By "my boys" I mean, Hubby Joe (or Sassy as I may call him) First born son Jack (or JT) and newborn son Luke (or LJ). These 3 people give me the greatest joy in my life and make me feel as though I am so very loved.

It is March in MN and one of the things I Love and hate about it here is how funny the weather can be. Earlier this week we had 60's temps and now it's snowing.. on the first real day of spring... funny how that happens. It's like the flirtation of what's to come but we just can't get there. I find myself lately lacking in the confidence arena. I feel like I could be giving more the the kiddos and to my marriage and like I'm always working in my mind to re-work our life so that we can accomplish more in the given day. It is only then that I catch myself not living in the moment or dwelling on stuff that shouldn't get a second look. My goal for this year is to become healthier (which is lofty because I hate most healthy foods) Another goal is to let go of things that are trivial.... this is hard for me as I tend to replay them over and over and analyze (see a trend here) Finally another goal I have is to be present. Stop and enjoy the moment and take it for what it is. We are currently mostly healthy. Our families are also healthy so we are deeply blessed there. I also strive to learn to be a better cook and get more recipes made so we don't have so many repeats.

Today my JT greeted me upon coming home and I was so thrilled. It was the smallest gesture but it was soo sweet. He is making me laugh out loud daily and surprising me with the way he speaks and understands life. This also holds true for how much he picks up on and how I will now be learning to be much more selective in my choices of what to explose him to. A minor example would be the fact that I always have music playing and usually for his sake it's christian rock or kids music. However, on occasion I will play stuff I like that gets me moving.... like Katy Perry's "I kissed a girl" Well, (I'm sure you are seeing where this is headed) I was listening to it and heard my little JT singing along. As much as I laughed I also wondered how that might come off at Grandma's house or church for that matter. Oh well... still was uber cute.

Lj too is surprising me. He's such a content baby. He currently is fighting croup and doing a great job at it. He's just so sweet and smiley. He is also such a big boy and it makes me laugh because to me he's tiny but at 3 months old he's 18 lbs and that is big. He loves to see faces and I'm hoping to get him all out laughing soon. His fav faces are ours and my fav time with him is nursing. I dreampt of it when I was pregnant and am in love with this bond we share.

Sassy is always blowing my mind with his gestures of love as well. Tonight he drove an hour out of the way to get us some cheap bunk beds for Jt's room. We have a nephew that we have come over to play a ton and this will make it easier, plus LJ will move in with JT eventually. My fear is that they are too big but we shall see. He would move the moon if it made me smile and I for him. We have had some rocks in our road but are seeing the smooth path again and it's to be expected.... we have 2 little ones and look at where the country is in general.

Anyway... I'm off to bed. I doubt anyone will find this interesting... then again...maybe one day I will get a kick out of it or the kiddos might. Either way it's therapudic. (sp?)
~Night.