It's pouring....

First it rains and then in a matter of 24 hours after learning we've had a miscarriage, the following happens The following is my pity party...........not like it matters.... who's even reading this crap, I wouldn't be.

Friday

home all day after surgery, pick up kids and they are both in bed asleep by 8 due to lack of naps or not good naps all day. Did I mention that Luke has horrible diarrhea from meds he's taking and Jack's coughing is scary bad now? 4 people (all related to us) haven't bothered to call or send a message of caring and while 3 of them I should just write off, the 4th one surprises me and it hurts. I know other people have lives but how long does a phone call take to someone you are close to? Nuff Said.

8 pm to 10 pm:

Joe and I decide to watch the Time Travelers Wife and I don't recommend it, especially after the news we got yesterday.

10 to 11 pm:

Jack gets up 4 times screaming and coughing terribly. We decide then and there that he will head to after hours care in the morning. Joe takes Jack into our bed to hopefully give them both a better nights sleep and I head to the basement to recover more and try to sleep myself.

Saturday

12:30 am:

I wake to Luke, SCREAMING his head off. I get up the stairs as fast as I can and get Joe. We give Luke a bottle and Joe tells me to go back and rest. I no sooner get down and comfortable again and Joe stomps 2 times on the floor to let me know he needs help. I come up stairs to the smell of vomit milk and Luke just going nuts .

1:30 am:

Luke is still up and has now woken up Jack.

2:30 am:

Luke is finally going to sleep and Joe returns to sleep with Jack

I try to sleep, "writing and re-writing" this blog in my head and praying to God for some mercy and rest because I really don't know how much more I can take of this.

5 am:

Jack comes to the top of the basement stairs asking to sleep with me and I say it's fine, much to Joe's protests.... He does come but between his coughing and waking intermittently, I really get no more sleep

7:25 am:

They are both awake and Luke at least seems to have been having a fluke with the vomit, or maybe that is me wishful thinking.

We are exhausted and we are over whelmed. But neither of us would trade the last few hours for not having these 2 little blessings in our lives.