"I Beary Sick Momma" "whats the choice"

Jack is sooo cute and man is he a smart one that kid.. He has said a few funny things this week that still have me laughing out loud just remembering them. Jack is "beary sick" He has a double ear infection in one ear and an infection in the other as well as pink eye.. FUN FUN. Anyway he said to me 3 days ago.. "Momma I no go nah night because I beary sick" I go play"... nice logic there huh... the other thing said was last night he asked me to "come here" because he told me he had a question. He then went on to state that "I go your bed or you come my bed Momma... what's the choice?" I guess he's now picked up on our way of thinking :0).....

Today I feel good... despite getting minimal sleep this week I am also sporting a version of Jack's cold/cough stuffs and not at ALL liking what I see in the mirror I'm in a good mood and happy. For the most part things are good. Swimming is going better... I just need to get in the water as much as I possibly can at this point. One thing I wanted to "touch" on in this blog was my love of music and how I'm seeing that transcend into my little ones... I swear when a song captures my attention I will listen over and over and dissect it all and look at every angle of emotion that it brings forth to me. For example... I hear the song "let them be little" (I should also note that upon receipt of my very first ipod I thought Joe was crazy for the gift and now I LOVE it... way to go Joe) back to that song... the verse that says let them cry and giggle and sleep in the middle... I did that last night with my Jack and man it it pay off for me in leaps and bounds... I discovered my little guy is such a ham and so sweet... he's a beautiful soul inside and out and I am bursting with pride about it. Usually the conversation about Jack's testing revolves around things that are just like his Momma and I always am sensitive about it.. this time it was something funny and quirky about him that's just like me.

Another few that really get me are "to where you are..."I'd recommend it to anyone who's lost someone" "Find your wings" for any parent of a child" and lately one i keep playing over and over is "Now and Forever" It makes me feel like Joe is right there and I'm in his arms in a bear hug and the world stops and it's just us... no-one else, just us.. I pray that the words of this song are the feelings in his heart and yet I remember that he's told me of a song that is similar in meaning and that's "Everything" if ever I am blue I hear it and I'm instantly back up....

This blog is kind of all over the place but it's because I keep getting interrupted in thought... I feel as if I owe it to this to finish some final thoughts sans interruption.... Mothers Day is coming next week and the last thing I want is something material... there's nothing I need in that way. What I really need is the laughter of my husband and family.. I need some fun memories and some down time. I am giving up the clean house and just letting it all hang out for Mother's Day. I want to play all weekend with my little family and just laugh and feel loved. Feel desired and feel needed... I also want to make memories.... maybe even do hand prints.. that would be "pretty cool" I think a hand print of Joe's hand and the kids' hands would be cool and maybe even make a duplicate gift for Naan and Grandma... nice.. well done Momma.. I know Joe has plans too.. I look forward to those without hidden expectation and with much love... He's getting good at surprising me with little things that matter most and for this I'm all the more in love with that man......
~AC