Alone...

It is 8:33 p.m. and I am exhausted. I have been up since 5 15 a.m. and put in 10.5 hours of work at my part time job. I have also put in 3.33 hours of full time mom work this evening.

What an evening it's been. I was graciously offered to have dinner at Dona's house (Jack, who adores Dona, lovingly calls her doughnut... thankfully, she thinks it's cute too). Poor Ms. Dona though.... Not only am I picky, but Jack is also just as picky if not more so and then we had Joey (my nephew) with us as well and he can't have much milk or any eggs. We are such a high maintaince crowd. Yet Dona, bless her heart, was just easy going about the whole thing. She welcomed us into her beautiful home and made us feel like it was our home. The kids played so well together too. Her daughter Leila had the boys playing with baby dolls while the actual baby brothers had a big ball to play with and were taking turns shreiking and laughing at the ball as well as chasing it around the house.

We came, we ate, we played and we had a blast. It was a much needed mommy time for me and nice to change up the norm for my kiddos. Although, as most moms would already know, I cannot believe we managed to accomplish having a heart to heart talk about our lives while being interrupted every few minutes with the needs of our babes. She is truly someone I am thankful to have as my friend and I feel blessed that she is in my life.

I have 3 boys in the house at this time. Ages 5, 3 and almost 1. One of the 3 is sleeping and the other 2 are heading in that direction. Daddy is gone for the weekend. He's hunting up north and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't sad that he's gone. I hate being alone. Don't get me wrong, once in a while (Like when I'm blogging) I like to have a moment or even an hour to myself to blog, surf the net, read or whatever. But a night or even a weekend alone is not at all my cup of tea.

Joe has always been a hunter and liked to hunt. I have known him for 17 years and we have dated/been married for 8 of the last ones. I understand that this time of year is when he like to go and I respect that it's something he enjoys. Each year I do get a little better about most of it. I do still get scared to be in the house alone and don't like sleeping without him by my side. He's my home... my safety... my comfort. I don't mind having the kids all alone. I would even rather he hunted close by and was gone from 5 am to 10 pm. I would love that more. Either way, I know he will go and have fun. I look forward to the times when we can make a weekend out of it and then I can shop or read or whatever and he and the boys can go.

For now though I will be lonely. Thankfully though... I have friends like Dona who keep me company and get my mind off the feelings. I'm very lucky to have such a wonderful group of girlfriends, Mommies and Non-Mommies who love and support me. Love you ladies!